sexyscholar: (Merlin: I don't even)
i had this dream that i was at some big anime/video game convention thing with [livejournal.com profile] icanhaspancake (which is weird in itself because i don't know what she looks like, but i KNEW it was her somehow, i guess).

we're kind of off to ourselves, because she's not into big crowds, and she's telling me about all the different anime i need to watch and we squee over shipping possibilities and out of the corner of my eye, i spot rupert grint in this little bookstore across the way (it's in a big mall or something, idk.)

anyway~ i tell sarah, and we both lose our shit appropriately for a minute, and then we decide that we should ask for his autograph. well, i decide. i just kind of make [livejournal.com profile] icanhaspancake come with me.

so we get in this store, and we see rupert reading a book. we walk past him because we're so nervous that it's stupid, and he kind of notices that we don't stop, so he stops reading and watches us. anyway, we go into this cat and mouse sort of thing: we stalk him, then he stalks us.

but the freakiest part was, when i finally got up the nerve to ask him for his autograph, he was like, "no. because you took too long to ask me." O_o

so yeah, he was basically this huge jerk, which goes against everything i've ever seen or read about him and i was pretty much crushed, and [livejournal.com profile] icanhaspancake was flailing because i was crushed and she didn't know what to do.

i eventually got over myself and we got ice cream and shuffled back to our little corner and talked about anime some more. and watched this epic game being played on these big monitors. it was some kind of action/adventure extravaganza called "Starkour" or something and it was being played by the creator of the game and EVERYBODY was watching and cheering and whooping like it was a sporting event.

so yeah. it was different.
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well, [livejournal.com profile] icanhaspancake might.

but i think even she'd tell me to just shut the hell up about it.

i call shenanigans. )
sexyscholar: (Random: FAILBOAT)
arrrrgh i sort of hate my pinch hit for the [livejournal.com profile] ficadron but it's too late in the game to start over. and after the last one, my confidence is a little bit shattered and i've read a couple of stunning r/d fics over the last few days that were just so gorgeous and well-written and mine pretty much sucks in comparison and and and :flails:

/whining like a fucking baby

no no no.

Dec. 4th, 2009 12:33 pm
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dear writer's envy,

please, PLEASE leave me alone. i just...i don't want you right now. i can't afford it.

respectfully,
mo
sexyscholar: (ST - Bones spots a cookie)
the boy (and i mean, boy. kid can't be more than 21.) who works at the local potbelly restaurant has the prettiest hands -- smooth and clean-looking with rather long fingers. i have a difficult time not looking at them and wondering about...things.

when's the next bus to hell? i'm reasonably sure i'm supposed to be on it.

:/

Jun. 18th, 2009 01:47 pm
sexyscholar: (Simpsons: Poor Grandpa.)
had a rather disjointed chat with a dear friend that's left me feeling out of sorts and rather open-ended. i know that i've not done anything wrong or unwanted, but i still feel kindof awful.

i'm striving to not take any of it personally, because i know that's not how it was intended -- but my brain is starting to work overtime in an effort to make it all my fault. because that's just what my brain does.

i have another page of fic to type, but the desire has abandoned me at the moment.

aargh.

Jun. 10th, 2009 08:19 am
sexyscholar: (BSG - SUXX0RS)
writer's envy is threatening to consume me.

i will never be able to convey ideas as clearly or blisteringly as the way others have done in the things i've been reading. i know i have my own writer's "voice" and all that, but i'm becoming more and more convinced that it doesn't have anything good to say.

i feel like a fucking failure right now.

i'm going to blame it on residual pms, i think.

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