aargh.

[sexyscholar]

writer's envy is threatening to consume me.

i will never be able to convey ideas as clearly or blisteringly as the way others have done in the things i've been reading. i know i have my own writer's "voice" and all that, but i'm becoming more and more convinced that it doesn't have anything good to say.

i feel like a fucking failure right now.

i'm going to blame it on residual pms, i think.

Comments

[lokifan]

I know exactly what you mean. Writer's envy is a dreadful phenomenon.

*hugs you*

[sexyscholar.livejournal.com]

I deal with writer's envy fairly often, but it doesn't normally bog me down like this. I've been reading the angst entries posted in the rd_challenge, and there are some that I found so stirring and well-written that it was making me kind of want to give up.

I'm glad someone understands. Thanks. :)

:hugs you back:

[laney-jane.livejournal.com]

Oh I get that sometimes.
I get these ideas that I really want to turn into a story, and then try writing it and it just comes out crap.
It passes :)

[pixvix.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I know the feeling! I have pretty much given up on writing...but if YOU stop...I might hurt you!!! You had me going nuts just over that little Adrian/Draco snippet you posted!

[sexyscholar.livejournal.com]

You are the sweetest. Thank you for saying so, and I'm thrilled you liked it so much!

I do hope to come back to that after I'm done with the Crown of Rope thing.

But, another Ron/Draco/Adrian thing sprang up in my head a few days ago, involving a bondage club owned by Adrian, Ron as an enthusiastic BDSM novice and Draco in leather -- in a cage.

IDEK.

[pixvix.livejournal.com]

Draco in leather -- in a cage.

....O_o....I have this...thing...for Draco in leather. He looks good in leather...sorry I think my mind has melted so I'm going to be rambling for hours now....

[sexyscholar.livejournal.com]

I like rambling! I do it all the time.

Yeah. I was listening to this song, and I got this image of a leather-clad Draco dancing in a cage, his hair in a top-knot and a collar around his neck that's chained to the cage so he can't get away without permission.

Adrian's permission, as he would be his "pet."

...

O__o

[captainrosie.livejournal.com]

God I know EXACTLY what you mean :(

/clings

[theheartless69.livejournal.com]

^^ Same here D:

[tehprincessj.livejournal.com]

I think we've all been there (damn those who haven't!!!). I find myself, quite often, conflicted by the really good writing of others. On the one hand, it's inspiring, it makes me want to strive for better things myself, but on the other, I really feel like: why bother when my writing is such shit?

At the end of the day, I have to concede that I write because I feel incomplete when I don't. With everything I've ever written, there's been at least 1 single moment when I've been really happy with what I've done. But likewise, there's been at least 1 single moment when I've just wanted to delete the whole thing and give up writing for ever.

We're all growing, learning, hoping our writing improves. And it's true, really, the more you do, the more you'll grow as a writer. ♥

I think you're an awesome person, with wonderful ideas and a great personality. Let's just mush on together, shall we?

[fauxgateau.livejournal.com]

"i'm going to blame it on residual pms, i think."

Good plan. =D
Usually I just hide from the world until I write something pseudo respectable. ]=

[hull1984.livejournal.com]

Oh hon, SNAP!

I've been feeling the exact same (and kinda wanting to withdraw my own entry to a certain challenge due to overwhelming feelings of inadequacy).

But hey, look at all the lovely we're getting along the way.

And you, my dear, will NEVER be a failure in writing or anything else (hey, I've seen the pics of your amazing kids - no one's ever going to eclipse that one, baby!).

*hugs*

[thrihyrne.livejournal.com]

There are particular people I beta for in order to get closer to them, their imagery, their overall style... I hope you know that you're in that group for me.

I wish I could bleach the words 'fucking failure' from your brain, heart, spirit, fingers on the keyboard.

I do have a perhaps irreverent thought. I've been watching Torchwood, and it makes me want to watch BSG again. BSG is so dark, and real, and the characters in an inexplicable way make me think of you. I wanted to like Torchwood for the M/M or omnisexual Jack, but my soul is drawn back to BSG. I know that you have Adrian/Ron/Draco/David Bowie on the brain, but have you thought about writing even a snippet something about Starbuck? Or anything over in that realm?

You do have your own author's voice, and whether it's good or not, well, I know that I've been HOARDING your fics on my harddrive, in whatever states of finished they are, because I adore them.

So there. :P

[sexyscholar.livejournal.com]

BSG, hmm? It's certainly intriguing -- and it would give me another reason to sit down and watch the entire series from front to back again. :p

I know that you have Adrian/Ron/Draco/David Bowie on the brain

For future reference, you simply CANNOT throw all of them in together like that. IT'S JUST TOO MUCH. All that blond and red mingling together... UNF.

I hope you know that you're in that group for me.

That's a honor for me, truly. You're my favorite writer, but I'm certain you know that already.

I may have something to send you on the CoR thing -- it depends on how much I can get typed today. It's turning out a lot pornier than I'd originally thought it would be. :p

(((squishes you)))