sexyscholar | fanmix: doomed from the start, as lovers are

doomed from the start, as lovers are - a charles/erik fanmix

pfft. so this? probably the most amibitious fanmix i've ever made. it all started last week when i listened to the song, "in the glass" by ok go. and i started thinking about when charles is shot at the beach and erik rushes to his side (aka the divorce scene) and they have this really bittersweet "i will always love you but i just can't tell you that" moment, and the song is screaming out, "MY GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE?" and. it was so utterly erik at that moment that it made me weep.

and then i knew that i had to make a fanmix. :) but i wanted to have a "disc" from both erik's AND charles' point of view.

so this is really two fanmixes i guess?

"tuned to find you" is charles' disc. it's more upbeat and breezy, but wholly sincere. in my head, charles has this deep-seated need to protect and care for erik, and is hurt when erik shuts him out. "fallen for your notion" is erik's disc. it's darker and kind of bitter. he's angry and resentful because charles dares to care about him, making him feel trapped, but at the same time, there's a part of erik that's so broken and needy and selfish for charles' attention.

just. adfslfjal.

anyway. here it is. my first fanmix in over a year. eep.

tuned to find you // charles	fallen for your notion // erik
o1. the boy least likely to ; hugging my grudge and when i hold you in my arms it scares me just to think that something so beautiful could just come apart in my hands.	o1. nightmare of you ; my name is trouble so this is the last time that i'll hold your hand i want to kiss you on the mouth and tell you i'm your biggest fan
o2. the decemberists ; here i dreamt i was an architect and i am nothing of a builder but here i dreamt i was an architect and i built this balustrade to keep you home, to keep you safe	o2. the kills ; nail in my coffin i am no better at this than you are loneliness never truly leaves me alone i have made mistakes i can't take back home i love you just not the way you want
o3. ra ra riot ; can you tell? oh baby, what am i supposed to do? it's hard to stay cool. oh when you smile at me and i can notice every time you speak	o3. the smiths ; please please please let me get what i want good times for a change see, the luck i've had can make a good man turn bad
o4. the national ; lucky you every time you get a drink and every time you go to asleep are those dreams inside you head is there sunlight on your bed	o4. angus & julia stone ; lonely hands you took me in gave me something to believe in that big old smile is all you wore ...you make me want to feel
o5. the magnetic fields ; the way you say goodnight you've got a devastating point of view and everything you say is true you're beautiful beautiful	o5. train ; eggplant scarlet your eyes, cover your face if i could dance, or stay in this place i would be king and you would be mine i would be day and you would be time
o6. the acorns ; antenna the body speaks in chemicals, a song and dance not visible but i've been told don't go looking 'cause the tune was tuned to find you	o6. sia ; lentil you saw me as i wish the whole world would you would never hurt me, desert me or work me for all the things you thought you could
o7. arctic monkeys ; old yellow bricks you are the fugitive but you dont know what you're runnin' from You cant kid us and you couldnt trick anyone	o7. electric president ; feathers so you know where i'm from and you know just what i've done and what i've seen and what i will become if i'm cut free and you are not to blame for what happens to me
o8. bjork ; bachelorette i'm a tree that grows hearts one for each that you take you're the intruder hand i'm the branch that you break	o8. ok go ; in the glass it was clear and bright, like a midwinter sunlight my heartbeat counting down a moment, precise and quiet i looked out and saw my own reflection helpless i looked out and saw him overwhelmed and helpless
o9. sondre lerche ; ricochet rehashing the wounded patriarch on a tattered throne with a broken heart from a home where you don't earn your stripes you have to demand your rights	o9. johnny cash ; hurt i wear this crown of thorns upon my liar's chair full of broken thoughts i cannot repair
1o. patrick wolf ; armistice trust all the years you'll wait to find this man who's loved you your whole life so come closer closer to where we belong	1o. the drums ; down by the water i know it's hard i know it's hard to be in this forever if they stop loving you, i won't stop loving you if they stop needing you, i'll still need you, my dear
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ajkldfs thank you,

sixtieshairdo, for all your help while i was putting this whole thing together. ♥

please comment! it makes my world go 'round.

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vulpesvortex.livejournal.com

Armistice is my ultimate Charles/Erik song! And I was reading this listening to Hurt and just...if you are psychic please tell me now.

sexyscholar.livejournal.com

WHY YES MY PSYCHIC POWERS ARE QUITE PHENOMENAL~

'Armistice' is just a perfect song for Charles and Erik. Just. That "come closer to where we belong." I DIE.

And when I listened to 'Hurt' in the context of Erik, I cried. AGAIN.

OH THESE TWO.

sixtieshairdo.livejournal.com

THIS FANMIX IS SICK.

damn.

I COULDN'T HAVE DONE IT WITH YOU, CHARLES.

Edited Date: 2011-10-10 07:47 pm (UTC)

persephassax.livejournal.com

So, basically my life has become "Everything is First Class and nothing hurts" except I have an exam this week and the next, so I've made the decision to close all the many tabs of fic I had open and focus until things get a little less hectic, and if I really need to procrastinate, I get to read James Joyce's Ulysses.

But. This fanmix looks to be so beautiful, and I can always music & study at the same time. So thank you.

Also, I love the way you see Erik and Charles. It's so beautiful. (they make me weep. good god.)

Eee, I hope you like it!

They move me. They're so beautiful and tragic and perfect kjflakfjlakj

But also somehow hopeful because they don't just sort of end dramatically... They still get together and spend time as people, putting aside philosophy and everything.

I can never decide if the idea of them getting together to play chess makes me want to laugh or cry. Sorry. Rambling.

fracturates.livejournal.com

guuurl this looks AMAZING. ♥

EEEEEEEEEEEEE THANK YOU ♥

greenteaduck.livejournal.com

OOO SO COOL!! Def downloading!

I hope you like it, bb!

Thank you! ♥

samescenes.livejournal.com

The artwork is amazing (the cap on the front cover, oh my god feeeeeeelings), and is definitely an incentive to download. Thanks!

Aw, thanks so much. ♥

Yeah. Charles/Erik.

Just. ALL THE FEELINGS.

mauvais-pli.livejournal.com

I am so smitten. I already know and love half of the songs, and Iäm downloading the rest. So much love for including Down by the Water, Electric President and Arctic Monkeys! ♥